I miss Josh so fucking bad 😩 just like the first time I am super attached . why couldn't I have found out I was pregnant before our big fight. now that he is gone I just crave his existence . 😓😓 wish he would call . Thought about turning on his phone just to call him. I know I am a fool cause he tried to kill me 😞 its my hormones it's my hormones and it doesn't get better so I have to stay away but pregnant with his baby doesn't make it easier on me . life sucks 😥😥