I don't know what to feel anymore to be honest... I feel incredibly alone in this world and I feel like I constantly have to apologize to my son for his "father"... His "father" left us... He didn't care... Probably still doesn't.. I continue to talk to my belly and say "sorry I couldn't give you everything..." I'm so weak lately... My heart is shattered. I don't even know what to think or feel... So much stress.. 😔💔 Mommy is sorry Lyam.