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I just realized my son is almost 5 weeks old & I never told my birth story! So I had my c section scheduled for January…

I just realized my son is almost 5 weeks old & I never told my birth story!

So I had my c section scheduled for January 2nd at 5:30 pm, I was so nervous I didn't get any sleep the night before (I blew up preggie with status up dates every hour lol) My doctor told me to show up 2 hours early so they could set up a room, fill out paper work & run some tests before I went into surgery.

I'm having a constant panic attack it feels like because I am so nervous, time even felt like it was going by super slow! Well 5:30 came & passed & my doctor was nowhere to be found, the nurses were even freaking out, running the halls & asking every doctor if they'd seen him. 2 hours pass & my boyfriend & I were losing our patients so we requested another doctor to do my surgery, just as we did my doctor came into the room as if he wasn't running 2 hours late, I was so upset but it didn't sink in entirely until they wheeled me off to the operating room. I'll never forget it, It was ice cold, small & terrifying. They have me get on the table & give me my spinal tap, as soon as they're done doing that they lay me down & strap my arms down. As soon as that happened I had the worst panic attack I've ever had. Thank god for my nurse because she grabbed my face, looked me in the eyes & told me to breathe, told me I was about to have my son & everything will go great (they had to give me oxygen because I was having trouble breathing) after that I asked for my boyfriend, she quickly ran outta the room & grabbed him. After he came in the room the surgery began.

My anesthesiologist was great, the whole surgery he told me how it was going & how much longer until I was gonna meet my son. At 8:40 pm my son was born, I heard his first cries & I burst into tears of joy. I'll never forget that moment then they started cleaning him off & raised him up to show me, he was beautiful. My boyfriend tried holding on to my hand & looking at our son, I pushed him away & told him to take pictures of him. Not even 2 minutes later my son & my boyfriend were out the door & headed to the nursery.

Unfortunately after my surgery they gave me some medication for pain that I react badly too (which I told them before surgery) so I was throwing up the rest of that night/morning & didn't get to hold my son for the first 6 hours he was alive, I also didn't get to breast feed which caused him later to reject breast feeding completely & is now formula fed.

Sorry it was so long but I just realized I didn't share with you mamas the most important & life changing day of my entire life.

I love you, Oliver. You'll forever have mamas heart in your hands 💕

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday…

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no, his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me and did something else with an other girl.... and it's 10:51 am now and he hasn't texted me at all. and after he dropped me off I texted him saying what I felt and nothing. I don't know if I'm over reacting or what or what should i do. do i wait until he text me?

Smh so my mama and boyfriend have a car but niether one of them will give me a ride to the children hospital for my son.…

Smh so my mama and boyfriend have a car but niether one of them will give me a ride to the children hospital for my son. Both them talking about they know what’s going on with him? Smh I swear I already talk to on call doctor & they told me take him to er. I know my child don’t have no stomach virus. I know something is seriously wrong with my son.

Science! My friend posted this on facebook last night and said her kids were asleep within minutes. It's a song that…

Science! My friend posted this on facebook last night and said her kids were asleep within minutes. It's a song that scientists created to help people fall asleep. I was skeptical but I thought what the hay, I'll try it out. I didn't bank on Dh falling asleep, but both him and lo were asleep by minute 2. And lo slept six straight hours. ?

Honest opinion am I overreacting....so my mother in law and sister in law didn't call my son on his birthday on…

Honest opinion am I overreacting....so my mother in law and sister in law didn't call my son on his birthday on Wednesday. Yet they knew it was his 2nd birthday. I was so upset and hurt because we've lived with them so I considered them like my actual family. My mom threw a surprise party for my son that night it was literally only my sister,brother,mom and aunt and one of my friends and of course us. Well my mom decided to go fb live with us singing happy birthday. My mother in law comments that why didn't we tell her anything so I tell my mom if she really cared she would've called him to say something.Even family members that I don't talk to often messaged him a video singing to him! So the next day I receive a message from my sister in law asking me why I didn't invite them. I then explained that either of them called to tell him anything. So then she was like well you could've still invited us and then I explained that it wasn't my right to do anything since it was my brother sister and mother throwing it for him! So then I told her that they were more than welcome to throw him anything if they truly wanted to needles to say they were mad because they weren't invited to my son's surprise party. And I apparently should've told them to call my son super frustrating. Well I'm so glad my family loves my son and spoils him they do everything for him so I am truly blessed. Just gets me upset because birthdays are a big deal in my family.