It is 3:51am and I was in the middle of having my own nightmare when my boyfriend started screaming in his sleep. I woke…
It is 3:51am and I was in the middle of having my own nightmare when my boyfriend started screaming in his sleep. I woke him and he told me about his dream (bad idea since I have extreme anxiety and it's only gotten worse with being pregnant) and now his dream is all I can see. I am so fucking tired I can barely type but my heart feels like it's beating out of my chest and my stomach is hard but baby is kicking (probably the only reason I haven't had a full blown panic attack yet). I need to sleep but I'm afraid to close my eyes. Just helped honey fall back asleep and now he's lightly snoring (currently a soothing sound) but now I'm exhausted and wide awake at the same time. In the last few weeks I have gone from wishing I could sleep peacefully to wishing I didn't have to sleep at all. I have never felt this way before. All I want to do is just disappear right now... :( just fade away my mind feels broken right now. And this seems to be the one place I turn to, to let loose and really speak my mind because... Well my boyfriends anxiety means I can't talk to him about mine. So far only letting it out here and the kicks from my little EJ are keeping me sane. Sorry for how long this is. Feels good to get it out.