I don't think I've talked about this, and it's something I want to share, my papa passed away a few days after I found…

I don't think I've talked about this, and it's something I want to share, my papa passed away a few days after I found out my daughter was a girl, he actually was hospitalized the day after I found out, he passed away from a heart problems, he started having his heart attack the day we found out our daughter was well our daughter, he was suppose to have bypass surgery a week after he passed away, but this heart attack was too bad for anything to be done, so they were just able to make him comfortable. He had a heart attack about a month before, and that's when they set up his surgery because they were trying to strengthen his heart before the surgery, just three months before that the doctors at the VA told him he was in tip top shape, his heart was perfect, something that was proven a lie. We had no warning, it's still devastating. One of the last things he saw before he was "gone" was my daughters ultrasound video, and see me and my sister happy, he passed two hours after we left the hospital, when we left I could tell he was gone, and I was so angry I yell my way out of the hospital, and was mean to everyone. He was actually my step grandfather, but I'd lived with him, my grandmother, and mom my whole life, and he was the only male in my life, besides my moms real dad and my uncles. I say this all because every so often Amelia will look up out of nowhere and talk to nothing (there's nothing on the walls or anything she'd be looking at, I like to think she's talking to him, like she would if he was here. So as experience, it doesn't get easier, but having baby around makes you realize they're still here in a way.