i fucking hate kids!!!! i really really wish i was born sterile. im burning my tubes after i have this one. good god. some times i would rather be dead then take care of my 3 year old.

you when babies get all spazzy and start freaking out when their excited or happy? that's the only way i can explain my sons movement! what is he doing!?

so, i was abuses pretty bad by my ex husband (bio dad) of my first child. physically, mentally, emotionally. it's been about 2 years since ive been away from him but i feel like there is a small place in me that is permanently broken. I've been to tons of therapy which helped a lot but i just can't seem to go back to how i was. im now with my fiance and father of this baby and i still have triggers. anybody else been a domestic violence survivor and feel this way?

ppd is not something to mess with. i got it really bad with my first and i swear it never really went away, now im due to have my second in 6 weeks and im struggling so bad. i have thoughts of not wanting my fiance, i dont want to kiss him or anything, my toddler must annoys the piss out of me. i see no happiness in being a mom, why did i do this again? all i want to do is get this baby out of me and leave everything behind. I'm already on anti depressants and it helps for a little bit then I...

only 6 -7 weeks left and ive only gained 23lbs! with my first i gained 80! funny how 23lbs in pregnancy world is nothing but 23lbs in not pregnant world is an assload! lol.

i feel so fucked up. my stomach hurts soooooo bad, threw up a little, have a head ache and typical cold symptoms. on a side note my son is kicking like freaking nuts, keeps putting his foot into my ribs and pushing up on my stomach so it makes me want to throw up even more.

when they said the third tri could bring back digestive issues, they weren't lying! i had acid reflux so had i was getting sick. it tasted like pure hell coming up my throat. i had to take tums and my zantac just to get some relief. it happens almost immediately after i consume anything.

almost 30 weeks, he's got his big 'ol head shoved way down into my pelvis. movements aren't very sporadic anymore they are controlled like he knows what he's touching. i think he's stuck in one spot because i feel the same movement over and over.

i bawled my eyes out 3 different times in one hour last night. .. April seems so far away.

i had to poke four fingers to get one reading on my monitor, fml! i hate this damn thing. it's either to little blood or too much!