I grew up in an abusive home. I still have issues handling anything that reminds me of all the abuse I went thru. There's only about 2 people who can hug me safely without me getting uncomfortable. Its been years since I left. Finally got therapy and got diagnosed with PTSD, depression and dissociative personality disorder from all of it. I'm getting better but I'm not sure I'll ever be completely healed. The hormones really don't help at all.

Yes I know that feeling all too well. Pregnancy hormones definitely don't help the situation. Stay strong and stay positive you are stronger because of it. Good luck mama.

the pregnancy hormones deff don't help, i feel like since being pregnant I've been having daily triggers. oooor now that im talking it threw, a lot of the pain and abuse was during my first childs pregnancy. maybe being pregnant is one big trigger. I've been feeling so fucked up this entire pregnancy.

yes.... my first "love", the guy I lost my virginity too... he abused me... physically, mentally, emotionally, and even sexually... I was SO young and naive I didn't understand.. and pretty much thought it was my fault he treated me so badly.. anyway... as I've gotten older and after I finally left him I'm starting to get stronger... it's been almost 3 years and I still have nightmares, I still have monents when I snap on the inside because something triggers those terrible memories... I ended up addicted to pain pills and threw away my future because of him... I never got any kind of counseling and honestly no one truly knows how our relationship was behind closed doors, so I didnt have much support from family or friends... but now. almost 3 years later I am with a man who is showing me what it's like to be truly loved and cherished (even when he's being a butt head).. and it's getting better... not much, and definitely not fast... but I'm slowly but surely healing. there will always be that one part of my soul that's completely black and broken because of the things he did to me and what he out me through.. but I feel like that dark part has helped me grow, and brightened the rest of my soul... it will get better one day! even if it doesnt completely go away... Just believe in yourself and know that you can be strong enough, that you WILL be... You will get over what he did to you and it will make you better and stronger in every way! ❤

i was with mine for 6 years. idk how i did it. i do know i have PTSD from it and I've come a long way. most of the time it doesn't bother me but sometimes arturo (my fiance) will accidentally set off one of my triggers and i freak the fuck out. i wonder if i will always be this way? i think that part of my brain is dead and will always be broken

I was hun....I was abused...raped...a conceived my youngest daughter thru it...she's my blessing...I completely feel the way u do...and yes I still have triggers now with my fiance...and I'm pregnant with his child..he knows what I be been thru...and he sees me distant myself at times..like I'm still scared...no matter what tho...he's always telling me he loves me and he will never hurt me...and holds me close every time..don't know what I'd do with out him...I'm so with you on how u feel....hang in there sweetheart...everything is gonna be ok...have faith in God that it's gonna be ok too...

My last relationship with my ex I was with him for a year dealing with physical abuse walking around with black eyes and busted lips,always having panic attacks,never being allowed to leave the house with out him or having a phone or friends, mentally abused and emotionally as well. it was last yr in July when I finally got free, now I don't even want to be bothered with my BD(not buy just his selfish ness) but because I feel like I moved on wayyyy to fast I don't feel like being in a stable relationship things from my past still come back to my memories everyday and I hate it,flashbacks even make me cry at times like whyy