my Lil chunky butt. 27lbs and only 19 months

loving my son Xavier every second of everyday <3

my man doesn't want to have another baby. I've only been pregnant once with our son who is 15 months he has a daughter who is 3 years old and because he had two kids he's done... I love his daughter like my own but I don't think it's fair to ask me to never have another child..

My man asked me if instead of US going on vacation together.. He wants to know if he can go by himself? Like really!? I watch both our kids clean the house make the food get up with the kids every night... But really no go without me...

If you have just become a new single mom what's the first thing you do? I have no job and im at my sisters...

So he hasn't responded... Hadn't told me what he wants or if he's even still with me... Just complete and scary silence... Hopefully he will talk to me today

So today I left him... I told him I needed change and im giving him a few days to reflect... I'm so confused and scared at becoming a single mother...

I clean up a huge part of the house mind you running on maybe 4 hours of sleep... What's he do? Tells me what I didn't do and how he '' needs assistance '' like bitch I do it all.... Ugh kids, clothes, food, dishes ect.. Bull shit

I barely got 4 hours of scattered sleep... My son won't stop crying... I feel like crying... All I want is to shower by myself... A real shower you know the kind where you can shave without worrying your baby will grab the razor..

My first finger hurts and my nails are purple... Ideas?