Prayers needed. We're letting Addison go to heaven today.

The closest I can get to holding her 😓 I do enjoy what I get though bc God is blessing me with her life right now.

I haven't been diagnosed but I think I'm going through postpartum depression and my depression is back from before I got pregnant in the first place. What are some signs of postpartum depression??

I don't want to have to make a decision to let my baby girl go 😢 lord I pray she just gets to come home and live a life as normal as possible

So this older lady came to the NICU to drop off one of the moms breast milk while waiting for her to come up there. Lady: *hands the milk to the nurses and says, Ok I'm going to see the baby.
Nurse: Hold on ma'am. I need to check the visitors list...... I'm sorry but the parents have set the baby's visitation as closed, meaning no one can go back without one of the two present.
Lady: *Gets mad, So even though I'm the grandma I can't go see my grandchild? *starts pulling out her phone
Nurse: No...

I don't post on here a lot so for anyone who wants to stay more updated on Addison, please go follow my Facebook page: Prayers for Addison Rose. I sit updates there every few days at the most.

My poor baby girl 😓😢 they had to find another vein for her IV and ended up stickin her in both arms. Her right arm is bruised and her left is in one of those things that keeps you from moving your arm. In her blood culture they found a bacteria in her blood but aren't sure what it is. The doctor said it could be anything from E. coli to thrush. She's also susceptible to a yeast infection bc of the antibiotics. I feel so bad for her. I wish I could take all her pain away but all I can do is pray ...

Things my daughter doesn't like:
- Light
- Sound
- Diaper changes
- Tubes being adjusted
- Being touched
- Her shades being taken off
- Voices (except for mine)
- Her ventilator
- Blood pressure cuffs
- Wires
- Other baby's crying
Things my daughter does like:
- My voice

All about your first born!👣
1. Was your first pregnancy planned? We didn't prevent it but didn't really plan it.
2. Were you married? No
3. What was your reaction to finding out? Ecstatic and scared
4. Were you induced? No
5. How old were you? 17
6. Who did you first tell? Boyfriend
7. How did you find out? Went to the OB
8. Did you want to find out the sex? Yes
9. Due Date? March 21
10. Did you deliver early or late? Early
11. Did you have morning sickness? Yes
12. What did you crave? Every...

We get to turn the blue light off at 10 tonight and see if her liver can keep the jaundice away 😊. They've lowered her oxygen from 100% the night her lung collapsed to 50 and she's only on a 37% for the other number which means she's not depending on the machine as much!! Prayers are working.