what could I have done to make him not want to meet his children. is it because they're apart of me that makes him not want to know them. logically I know that I didn't do anything to him and even if I did, the babies didn't do anything. I'm just trying to make sense of why he wouldn't want to know these babies that he so badly wanted. *thinking*

if only they would let me sleep for thirty minutes. I only want 30 minutes. #sleepdeprivation

liquid gold!! #breastfeeding #mamasmilk

they both wouldn't stop screaming until I held them. I need an extra arm lol... it took a lot of skill to take this picture BTW lol

I've gotta go to the er im losing too much blood. prayers please!!

waiting on my eldest little to get home so that I can take my 3 littles on a walk around the neighborhood. meanwhile budgeting for our 2k16 Disney trip. exciting!

sleep? what's that? it's tough when both babies are crying and need me at 3 am.

I guess it's my turn to pass out now. they'll wake up as soon as I put them in their beds though lol

first night home with the twins was ROUGH!!! lol

sleepy heads!