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You know what’s crazy!? When you were raised by your “father’s” side of the family, where they took you in as their own & gave you everything you’ve ever wanted & needed. And so you lived with this hurt, pain, bitterness inside for 29 years of your life up until recently, you finally built up the courage & because of your faith, you’re looking at things differently now so all that hurt & pain is let go & you want to forgive the man that was suppose to love you, take care of you, raise you… you reach out & text him because you don’t know how exactly it would go if you were face to face & completely lay your heart out on the table & not even looking for an apology but for a new relationship, wanting to start fresh, willing to put everything behind you just for him not to reply to you. You wait months & he still hasn’t reached out, KNOWING he had to of read it because you follow him on Facebook & you see he’s always active so now you sort of have this feeling again but your struggling because your faith & belief in things now are different & you shouldn’t feel this way & so you pray & leave it to God. Then you out of no where get a group text from family & it includes him & so you see everyone leave replies but him so now you’re wondering if you did all that stressing for nothing because maybe he really can’t get messages through text but then he replies to them………such a big slap in my face.