Can't have another baby?

I'm so sad and on the verge tears.

I went through a long road with IVF and successfully gave birth to my baby girl with only one embryo. The odds were stacked against me but I have my precious baby girl. When my husband and I first met he told me he always wanted three. I was okay with that but sadly I didn't have any eggs that I could freeze so I would have to start all over again for a third. The idea of enduring the IVF process with a toddler is just not something I have the energy for any more as I approach my mid thirties. My oldest is about to go through puberty and is experiencing all the emotions that come along with it. She doesn't need the chaos of living with a newborn again. I want to get back to my career that I've put on pause for the last 5 years.

I told my husband this morning that having a third just isn't in the cards no matter how much I want another baby. Even if we conceived naturally by some random odds it would just add the chaos and delay my own life further. I'm sad but I told him I want him to get a vasectomy to cover all our bases and I guess that just makes it super real.