I bought a new car yesterday. I needed it but I can’t help losing sleep due to the fact I dipped into my savings. Being in an abusive relationship in the past has caused me to be petrified of feeling stuck and dependent again. I have the money for it. But one side of my brain is saying I need X amount of dollars in the bank to “be free”. The thing is: even with the money in the account I didn’t feel fully free. I feel constantly haunted by my past and have become frugal with my money out of fear. I am hoping eventually the experience of a new car that is safe and dependable will help me overcome the negative feelings.
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That’s what I keep trying to tell myself! It’s nice to hear it from someone else.
Yay for the new car. You got this, you’re dependable on yourself, not anyone else. I feel this in my whole soul though.
One thing you need to remember is that you're insanely employable with your job. Between prn or taking a job at a nursing home, you will never be more than 2-3 weeks from getting a paycheck. It may be a setting or building that you don't want to work, but you could do it temporarily. SLP is insanely employable. You've got this and no one can ever take it from you.