I went to the OB today, I have mastitis, I also got put on depression medicine because I told my OB how I was feeling about not being able to have no more kids and me wanting more but I don’t want to risk my life or my children losing their mom and how my daughter keeps bringing up wanting a sister and how she told me last night if she seen a shooting star she would wish for a sister and the next day she would have one, I told my OB that I’m just really depressed and I’m just so hurt that I can’t have no more babies. It was always my dream to have a big family especially since I was in the foster system from age 7 to 13 years old. I also got a depo shot that lasts three months to keep me from getting pregnant, on February 2nd I go for ultrasound to check on my hemota however you spell it and once we see how that’s doing we will go from there with scheduling the tubel surgery. I have so much inside of my mind that it’s becoming too much.