Why is it so hard to get mental help!? I’ve looked for counselors or therapists that take my insurance and there’s always a wait time or an extensive up front fee to get in! So, if I wanted to kill myself, it would be easier to find a gun and some bullets than to find a fucking shrink. I’m completely depleted and have been crying off and on for days. My life is shit and I have nothing to look forward to. Jesus fucking Christ I’m over it. I’m over feeling this way. I’m over letting myself down. I’m over feeling like the shit mom that I truly feel that I am! I can’t even fucking cook. I try and burn shit. If not the food, myself. My ADHD doesn’t help with my focus and my anxiety brings me right back to my depression. Then being a single parent without friends or anyone to understand that this is not a joke and I seriously feel like fucking giving up. That’s all