Why can't I let go of this photo?

I cannot let go of this photo I was supposed to put it a frame for the service but the thought of maybe losing it is not an option so I took it idk why but this photos means the world I cannot even talk about this photo without breaking down I know I haven’t replied to any of you ladies but just know your words mean the world to me I don’t have many people and I just lost the one soul I could trust with anything and go to for anything I’ll be honest I’m so mad I’m mad at everything and the world rn but all I can do is cry so any little bit of support and happiness is much appreciated you ladies are such lights rn 💕