The story I never told but the shelter staff here it goes ! I thought I had this under control he was walking back and forth holding baby talking to me in a calm voice. He was saying that I dont wanna walk baby to sleep because Im lazy. I started to explain to him that just this July my back got stuck and i couldnt move so im trying to find alternitive ways not to carry baby so I dont get ingered alone with her and not be able to move from my back unexpectedly getting stuck again.I spoke in a calm voice as well I felt him sitting in the bed beside me as baby was already sleeping in his arm. I was laying in the dark and all of a sudden I felt his hand on my throat I looked at him and some how managed to ask why are you choking me ? As I asked he pushed his fingers harder into my throat. I managed to ask him around 4 to 5 x some how and everytime I asked he pushed his fingers harder into my troat I saw his face and his eyes and mouth looked focused and pergged.I heard my baby poop in his arm and I couldnt say anything I stopped asking him and stood still frozen he finnaly let go of my throat and then I woke up the next morning. Started making breakfast and smilling like nothing happened. He woke up and told me baby pooped I told him yes that was last night. When I served breakfast I saw my older daughter and faked the biggest smile said "hi baby breakfast is ready". The kids where already sitting at the table and I went back to the kitchen for something my neck was hurting and felt weard he came to me in the kitchen and said Im sorry for last night I was tired and tried to kiss me. I stopped him and wispered " From now on my body belongs to me, I will never kiss you again". I passed by him and smiled at my kids went to eat breakfast he came and joined us. That night my neck hurt and when I layed next to him as always my ear made a clicking sound I listened night after night what it sounded like and concluded defenatly like flipping a light switch off and on constantly. On his time home fromwork he started arguing saying he never touched me and I was imagening. I thought to myself am I imagening the pain too? I waited till christmas so my kids can open thier gifts and right after I planned my escape on Jan 3 2019 I left him , my mother, the proventive service worker , God parents , and went to freedom .

My mother telling me he is good and him im a whore i over heard her.
God parents saying im lazy and cant keep a house clean and cook
Proventive service worker who i told he choked me the first time was conserned about me getting him in trouble saying I can ruin his life and he is a nice guy who spoils me. Said he choked me before because I was hovering over him begging him to put baby down when angry.
They knew nothing but his very good act.it took me 3 yrs to start to understand his real underminded reasons control under the kind act he looks and acts as. Im alive I didnt listen to none of these people saying he was good I knew What he did and till this day he still sends me messeges saying we both know he was great and all those things im acusing him of he never did. Repeating this all over and over in messeges and saying he misses baby.......the baby he refused to put down to safty while stranggling me 2x and pushing me countless days and times. Now this story is the truth I swear to God because for some reason my truth was never heard ! Everyone believed him but Im a child of God and though shall not lie!!!!! I dont lie !!!! Im am me truthful kind forgiving creative guided by God protecting my kids from anyone and anything because I made it Im alive I am here ........ I am Alive today!!!!!!! To tell this story the true story !

Thank you for reading and if you see yourself in a similar situation you are worthy your life means everything get up and get away! Your kids need you more then ever surly wouldnt want them without you in that guys hands!!!!! Make it alive to tell your story and live a new better story!!!!!