I actually can't believe how lovely Charlie was with the baby today. I was adamant I wanted to wait…

I've slowly been getting sadder and sadder at the ever growing gap if baby no.2 was to ever happen. I always pictured having Charlie and then another by the time he hit 3 but it's just not planned out like that. Mostly on my part, Craig has been begging for over a year for another baby and I just wasn't for it. But things are coming together so who knows. But now my worry is finally getting into a job I wanna do and do I jeopardise that for pregnancy. I dunno 😩

It rarely ever goes to plan! Such a hard decision especially if you've got your work head on it's hard because once their off to nursery you think yay time for me to get back out there. There's never a wrong or right time. You do photography too don't you so if you were to get pregnant you could do that. These times are so uncertain at the moment too which doesn't make anything any easier x

I mean Craig's just got a new job that pays well, so we would be fine if I didn't take mine but its something I've been waiting on for a while but couldn't because of having a child at home 🤷‍♀️ yeah I'm doing my photography here and there but I decided to put it on the back burner for now and focus on my new job, I do have it as a fall back. Ughhh life decisions suck 😂

I hear people say it a lot that there's never a right time so I guess you're right with that. I love love my photography more than anything (and thankyou!) So Im still aiming to pursue that at some point. Just the new job has meaning to me with what my great nan went through, so I guess that's half the reason I'm so determined to stick to it. Me and my sister had 8 years between us and I don't know if we ever really were close tbh, I mean I loved her and all but I wanted to do my own thing, not have some little kid to entertain and have messing with my stuff and that's what I worry about with Charlie 😩 thankyou btw ❤️

Aww no.There's still plenty of time though! I was hit with PND so bad after Charlie it put me off for a long time and we were still living with Craig's parents so I was adamant no more until we had our own place! And now we have our own place it would mean moving to a bigger place which is another headache in itself. I'm just stuck in what I want to do 😂

You haven't met Charlie 😩 Bubba was an angel yesterday but Charlie most definitely is not, what if I end up with 2 Charlie's 😂😂

Hahaha, I said the same about ending up with another Kylan. But I'm insane with him as it is, what's another! I'll just be sitting in a corner rocking if you need me 😂

Ok the start of this comment brought me back down to earth a little bit 😂 x

it’s all worth it! X