With school coming back,and me trying to help my mental state,I decided to really work on fixing myself. Starting with my outside. I havn't been to a doctor in years. And I just started with the dentist. My entire left side is messed up. My ankle always swells. My knee locks up and my wrist and elbow always feel cramped up. I'm terrified. I don't do well with dentist or doctors (was fine with my obgyn, but only her, other ones freaked me out). My parents were very neglectful and didn't take us to appointments and when we did go, we were so messed up that the hospitals and dentists were traumatizing. I havn't been able to go as an adult bc of the trauma, bc of not having a sitter or bc of what ever was happening in life. But mainly the trauma. I just want to feel better. Physically and emotionally