Question: How did you find out you had anxiety did you self diagnose or went to the doctors ?

I found out when I went to a psychologist. I was bullied real bad when I was 12. This went on for a long time. By the time I hit 14 years old, I was so used to be nervous all the time and had to worry about not getting beat up and other crazy stuff. One day even when I wasn’t worrying anymore, I would feel nervous for no reason and worry all the time. It was horrible. At the same time I developed anxiety, I also developed stomach ulcers. I started feeling nauseous every day. I had chronic depression as well that time. It was a crappy time. It took me years just to get better. Now I don’t get anxiety unless I argue, stress out about something or when something bad happens. It took me a long time to calm down. I find the littlest things to make me happy now. It can be silly but it helps lol. For example the other day I got a cute organic soap that just made me day lol. If I don’t find the little joy in something, I would be a complete mess like I was back then. It’s funny but it has worked for me otherwise I would fall apart.

I forgot to say that having my children has also helped a lot like they gave me more of a meaning in life. Something I am meant to do. Before I was a complete mess and would always feel suicidal and waste so much time in my life. I used to say stupid things like I won’t make it passed 40. I will die young. It took me a long time to get out of such a dark place. I did have fun moments in between those horrible years like spending time with family but most of the time I had to many problems and people used to bother me a lot.

I think everyone has anxiety actually but some do have more than others and it can become uncontrollable and debilitating. No real way to diagnose it everyone’s is different like for instance I chew my nails to hell lol but a lot of times it steams from something so it’s always important to find the root cause. That means it could be physically or emotionally are you having a underlying health issues causing it or a mental health issue.

@mandehhhx3 I’m sorry to hear that. I’m glad that you are still alive! ❤️ It is never too late, you can still do something. 😃 If you aren’t working maybe you can try going back to school soon?

I also feel like I’ve wasted so much time in my life. Finally I’m trying to finish school. I never took my college seriously at first because after all the bs in junior high and some bs I had to deal with in highschool, I was just finally happy to be away from that mess. I went to school on and off in my 20’s. My depression made me so lazy. I took too many breaks through out the years. If I’m lucky I may have just one semester left if I’m able to pass the last 2 classes. 🤞🏻 After that I may transfer to another college. I also need to work. I don’t have much work experience. I hated dealing with people lol. I had bad anxiety at my old job. The feeling of being the center of attention kind of freaks me out like I just can’t be a cashier I hate it lol. I hated people yelling at me and staring at me. It put me in a bad place and I would kind of just freeze. I can’t help people when I’m so stressed out. When people yell at me and stare I feel like I’m put back in a place where I was bullied and no one stood up for me. Of course now I wouldn’t mind cursing someone out but when I was working, I didn’t want to lose my job so I kept my mouth shut. I hated that like why can’t I defend myself? I would rather be in the back room taking care of supplies or working in a factory. 😂 I did enjoy having conversations with friendly customers but those were only a few.

I feel like since I had my son he made me feel like I wanted to go back to school and finish. Now that I have my daughter, I definitely want to make sure that I can give them a decent future. If it wasn’t for the support I have from my mother, I don’t know where I would have been. If I was alone I’m afraid I probably would have ended up on the street or in an asylum from all the depression I had and bad anxiety back then. I slowly got better over the years. I haven’t had therapy in years but it definitely helps me to vent when I’m stressed out either on here or with my family. It was nice having a therapist to talk to but I feel like I got better on my own over the years. I may go for therapy again in the future but I feel good so far where I am and I haven’t taken anti depressants in years. 😃

S*** sorry I wrote so much. 😂 I have a bad habit of doing that.

basically knew since a kid I would puke before school... my parents were alcoholics so I knew early on I was screwed ..I still get like that too every Morning I get nauseous and sweaty 🥵 or if I think about my past after ...I started dancing it got worse but I’m to the point were it’s affecting my everyday life