Dont feel guilty for wanting to go back on your medication. You are doing this not only for your health, but for your babies as well. They need their mamma to be healthy and okay as well.

I breast fed for 6 weeks and felt guilty that I couldnt go longer, but it caused him bad acid reflux and no matter how I changed my diet it wasnt getting better so I had to switch.

Personally, I think you need to adjust to this situation. It doesn't make you a "bad" mom to evaulate the situation. Having 2 children to care for and having horrible migraines isn't going to work. Breast feeding one son isn't worth losing quality of life with both of them just to have achieved it.

I can say from personal experience, I desperately tried to breastfeed my daughter. When she absolutely wouldn't nurse, I pumped and gave her bottles of breastmilk. I would guess she probably got 2-3 oz of breastmilk and the rest was formula. I stuggled for 7 months until my supply dried up.

My daughter, though mostly formula fed, is absolutely amazing. She is smart, she is healthy, she wasn't adversely effected at all. My nieces and nephews who were able to be 100% breastfed aren't better off. Fed is fed, mama.

Go for quality of life and not putting yourselves through all that suffering. Give yourself permission to make other decisions guilt free because the situation isn't the same as with your first baby. <3