Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I deleted my last post🤦🏾‍♀️ I already seen that it was going left. 🥴

😁 I'm so happy in just a week I'll be in my 3rd and last trimester OMG I'm kind of nervous 😢

I am FREAKING out. I told my therapist I smoke marijuana to help with morning sickness, and she reported me to her supervisor. They referred me to their drug clinic on the 11th, and I'm so nervous because when they drug test me and if it's positive, I already have an ACS case and they will report me to my worker. My friend suggested Niacin, 500mg twice a day for two weeks, but I'm nervous if it's safe for the baby. I'm going to drink a gallon of water a day and try to ingest vinegar....ladies I'...

Ok so not using actual numbers.. But everyone knows I'm over weight since having my girls. It's no secret. BUT i was talking with my hubby last night and idk how we got to this but he said something like (not using actual numbers) no one should weigh 800lbs, they should take care of themselves. And i said so what if someone weighs 800lbs? He said no one should weigh that, they should be healthier. I said well i almost weigh 800! I'm in the 790s. And I'm healthy. I may be overweight but i don't h...