Have been planning Leo’s 5th birthday a bit earlier this time around. It happens to be on the same day my cousins birthday. Everyone in my family is basically going to his instead of my sons. He’s in his 30s so older so he could have it anytime. I don’t know why it’s affecting me so much that they all aren’t going I feel hurt by it. I’m glad his dad is going and his family and friends are as well. I would be crushed if no one came.
I have no friends! ?
I have no actual proper friends! I never go on nights out cos I don't have friends to go with! It doesn't usually bother me but it's starting too! My oh is busy helping his friend move today and then tonight he's out at the boxing with his mates and out after! Rhys is at his dads so it's just me and Isabella! ??
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
IF WHEN I HAVE MY BABY I DONT WANT MY BD OR HIS FAMILY TO EVER C HER WHAT DO I HAVE TO DO???

This is my son Walter. Today is his birthday. He would have been five. This picture was taken when he was 16 days old. He was my first child and my only son (I now have 3 girls). He passed away the next day after this picture from congenital heart failure. It was a miracle that he lived passed 12 weeks gestation because of how severe his heart defects were. I miss him so much, I can't believe it's been 5 years. It still hurts so bad. I don't talk about him a lot out loud because I end up bawling...

tattoo mommies let me see your sweet tattoos this is my right arm its a rose vine going around my arm and on my forearm i have two owls in love connected to it .
on my left side of my belly I have a dragon ;)