I blame my mother for everything that's wrong with me I feel like if I hadn't experienced abuse as a child then a lot of this feelings and emotions wouldn't be trying to drive me crazy then there is apart of me that wants to know what was she going through that made it so bad to do what she did either way I'm living with the consequences of her decision on a mentally physically and emotionally level that is overwhelming. That comes with a lot of anxiety these last couple years really been trying to do some self healing meditation n yoga and self love to get peace of mind and move on but the Enemy stays busy but I got stay even more busy can't let him win a take away what I work so hard for my family n myself