I was blessed for 5 months! 😇 It's strange everytime I feel overwhelmed with failing as a mother I see you still. Same…

I was blessed for 5 months! 😇

It's strange everytime I feel overwhelmed with failing as a mother I see you still. Same white butterfly that lingers every summer. I remember my sun burn I got trying to have fun watching the girls chase you...your hand was on my shoulder at a point that left a mark.

I truly believe this!❤

You showed me what growing up even more was when I saw you, even more so learning all your meditations and feedings.

Everything I went through ALONE was worth it! 🖤

Medication schedule, feedings, changing tubes, first natural birth and them taking you from me, and caring for your sisters at the same time.. You have showed me patience, kindness and the living for the moment stuff! (I'M SORRY I LOST MY WAY)

My only natural birth, my only birth alone with no one by my side...even when they told me you wouldn't live. I didn't cry.....why didn't I cry??? 😫😫😫

I USE to ask myself that...but you taught me strength...

My little love you know I messed up on my own "to do list " for myself...but you give me strength still.🌸

Not to fear life even when you know what's coming..even if you know what is there. 😲

My sweet girl I am still in pain but I thank the lord everyday for those last breaths you took with me. You chose me....of all people...HE chose me of all people..to be your mother. 🥰

Piece by piece, I'm working on it for me and for the kids.

I miss you so terribly, horribly bad...but I know your pain doesn't lingere and your soul is at peace. Our tickles were fun and consta cuddles.. ❤❤❤❤

I love you Diana RaeLynn.

I'm getting there baby girl...

I pinky promise 👌🏻🤟🏻

🖤🌸🖤