Any other first time pregnant mums out there spent the last hour in tears absolutely lost. This is not how it's supposed to be... who is going to teach me in those first few days/weeks how to be a mum... as my mum is not allowed to leave her house (she is vunerable)(so will we be).... no one is going to get to meet my bubba unless it's over face time. My bubba will only be held by me and its dad until god knows when. I feel devastated for my baby but also for myself.... I spent my pregnancy unable to share the real Joy's because babies dad was on tour... now I face doing the same with my new born baby.