Idk what to do :( after all this happening and realizing that we aren't prepared for if baby boy had to come the other day or if he has to come soon, I started really thinking about his name.
I was so set on naming him William James and now I keep thinking that idk if I want to name him William 😭 and I already told my mom and dad that his name is William after my brother Billy and if I decide to not I don't wanna make them sad.
I feel like I'm overthinking it.
The last 8 years I've said I would want to name a boy after Billy. At least the William part, cause I don't really like Irwin (my brothers middle name). And I feel like if I go back on what I wanted then I am disappointing my parents, myself and Billy's memory.
I know I want James or Jameson to be his middle name, but idk what I want anymore for his first name. And I'm not sure I want 2 middle names. My mom has some things if my brothers that had either William or Billy and was so excited that she'd get to give them to him when he's a little older and now I just want to bawl my eyes out.
If you think it will be too hard to separate William or Billy from the negatives related to your brother, then don’t worry about what anyone else thinks in your family and name your child what’s best for you. But if you’re able to, this could also be an opportunity to remember your brother at a happier time in your lives and honor fond memories you have of him.