Tomorrow will mark one year that I woke up to my worst nightmare...my 7 week old son not breathing, heart not beating, just a shell of where his pure soul lived. I miss my son so much. I think about him every day. I talk to him as much as can hoping he hears me. I hear noises and see things and witness unexplainable activities thinking it’s him letting me know he’s still around. I’ve missed out on so many milestones with him and left with too many what if’s and could’ve beens. It’s already hitting me hard and will hit 100x harder tomorrow. Please pray for me I need all the strength I can get. I’m lucky to have my daughter and fiancé cause without them I know I wouldn’t be here today. I miss you baby boy I really do
@itsamemario, you deleted your post before I could hit send but this is my comment: I don’t know if this answers your question but this is my answer.
My son is 7 and he knows race and color. Why? Because he himself comes from a family that is multi racial and because he has already experienced racism. I also believe as his mother it’s my job to teach him color and the cold hard truth about society. He knows what’s going on in this world. I’d be hurting him if I allowed him to blindly walk out...
I just want his arms wrapped around me one last time and hear words come out of his mouth that arent true "I love you".. I miss him so bad. My first love! My first relationship! He was many of my first and I know today isnt even the hardest day yet.. I literally hate that I love him so much.
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
My 5 year old brother just got circumcised due to all the infections he kept on getting & seeing him in so much pain not being able to walk makes me glad I got my son circumcised as a newborn & planning on doing the same with my second baby.


Enjoying some fun in the sun ☀️
Don’t come for me about him not wearing a life jacket. I don’t want to hear it. He was fine 🙄
I’m so sorry hun. Sending positive vibes to you & your family and definitely saying a prayer for you. ❤️