As I get older and learning I seem to find myself finding and looking for the Lord more. Been rough…

As I get older and learning I seem to find myself finding and looking for the Lord more. Been rough few years. Between families and money. Kinda want better for mental state this year. My partner against them so negative. Ruined my experience, efforts, and time. My mom says just keep going he’ll change. I just don’t wanna see the progress just Lord set him free.