Had a growth scan today, told the sonographer we dont know gender and really want to keep it that…

Had a growth scan today, told the sonographer we dont know gender and really want to keep it that way, she said thats totally fine and its against hospital policy to disclose that information after a 20 wk scan, anyway! She went straight between the legs TWICE without letting me know in advance!!!! At first I was CERTAIN I saw a willy but I was shocked because it looked HUGE then the second time there was absolutely NOTHING. I didnt want the back and fourth guessing but its playing on my mind now. Baby is growing perfectly and all is good so I am blessed