MOTHER FREAKIN RANT: Basically I'm stressed and need a serious vacay. I'm also depressed and I think…

MOTHER FREAKIN RANT: Basically I'm stressed and need a serious vacay. I'm also depressed and I think a vacay would ease the depression for a bit. My mom, her husband my 17yr old sister and her 18yr old friend all just left for a cruise to Mexico. Originally my sister's friend wasnt going, my 15yr old brother was. But long story short hes a jackass and super disrespectful so as punishment didnt get to go but they had already paid so I'm assuming that's where my sister's friend came in. I'm also struggling financially rn. And mom "cant" help bc she doesnt have any extra money. (REMINDER: SHES ON A CRUISE!!) So I happen to see a post about a mothers day cruise in 2020 and share it and bein petty said something along the lines of "since my whole family decided to go on a cruise without me, someone go with me." My mother comments "if you werent so close to delivering, you could've came too" so now I'm extra salty bc that's NOT what she told me to my face about why I couldn't take my brothers spot. As soon as they said he wasnt allowed to go I was like "✋😁 I can go, I've been needing a vacation" and she said "I know but you cant afford it" soooooo my punk ass little brother (who's always cussing at and squaring up to my mother) wasnt gonna have to pay her back but I WAS?!!! But me being the nice person I am didnt wanna call her out on FB bc she's trying to have a good time but I wanna cry now bc wtf!