Sometimes it's best to let it all out and get cleaned up after, sleep it off and restart. I repress and hold things in until I eventually melt down.. I've been there. Just hang on and know it'll pass. Pain doesn't last.

I also don't have a partner to console me. Maybe you two can work toward increasing the support in the relationship.. I often wonder if I would've just taken charge and hugged him first when I was upset to initiate him being there for me.. maybe it's worth trying?