Soooo my anxiety has calmed down some since I started my meds 7 months ago but I still can not handle being home alone. I’ve stayed at my moms all evening (until about 3:30am) because SO was our fishing with his buddy. He finally gets home so I drive me and Kota home and as soon as we get on the porch he’s walking out the door. He got a fire call. Someone has wrecked. I’m not mad that he ran a call. I know that’s his duty as a volunteer but I’m so upset being here alone. Not only am I afraid of being home alone but I’m freaking TERRIFIED of being here alone at night. I have no clue when he’ll be home and as much as I’d like to load me and my daughter back up in the car I’m too scared to even go out into the driveway now so I’m literally just stuck in here. I’m trying so hard not to have a panic attack but the longer I sit here the harder it gets. He can’t leave the scene either until he’s dismissed 😩 I’m so sleepy cause I’ve been up since 9am but I can not go to sleep. I’m currently sitting in my room with the lights on 😭😭😭😭