I appreciate your comment so much. It reminded me why I wanted to have another one. Thats my hope. My family was always very different. I love them but we barely talk. My sister passed away and it broke me knowing we never had a strong connection. I want to raise them different and create a bond. :/ I just dont know if I know how.
I might just be rediculously hormonal but having the second is so much scarier then having the first.

@karramae I hear you. I cried for a long time when I found out I was pregnant again. I felt that I was taking something away from my daughter. But I'm not. I'm giving her something. As children you'll have fights and stuff but as they grow older that bond will get better. If you want to cry I say cry. But don't that you're doing something bad because later on in life she'll be so happy that she's not on her own in the world