One day I'll find the one. Its scary being single which i nwver thought i would say. I loved mh…

One day I'll find the one. Its scary being single which i nwver thought i would say. I loved mh single life and it was only 4 years ago. But being with someone whonyou truly thought was someone and come tomfind out hes compete opposite. Its hard trusting it again. Especially when kids are involved. Next time around i will keep my children out of it. My dating and kids dont need to be mixed. I just feel bad for my oldest son. He has grown attatched to him in a way. I dont want to have someone come and go. Never have and i wasnt planning on starting anytime soon. At least my son knkws i tryed and i can talk to him and he is old enough to understand. I want him and my other younger children to grow up in a loving home, like i did. Trying to force things only blows up in your face. I have so much figuring out to do when i get home. Initially i was going to wait till this baby came and after i knew what i was going to do. But i just cant anymore. Im tired of negativity and rudeness and the lack of consistency and consideration. Only thinking about yourself doesnt do well in a real relationship