I hate this.. It's so heartbreaking that I'm not allowed to breastfeed. I just want that bond with…

I hate this.. It's so heartbreaking that I'm not allowed to breastfeed. I just want that bond with her. I hate her bottles. I hate her formula. I hate that I can't be the comfort she wants. I hate that my body requires this medication so I can be the best mom I can be. In turn it just makes me feel like the worst mom ever though. My baby just wants to nurse and I can't give her that. 😥 Fed is best, I'm just grieving the breastfeeding relationship I never got to have with her.