I'm scared that I won't be able to give my hubby a baby and I feel that he doesn't understand but I'm leaving it in God's hands

Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,

his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...

I had my baby boy!!! 5lbs 11oz and perfect. I was able to go all natural and I'm so proud of myself. I honestly didn't think I was gonna be able to do 😊

Sad panda

Blah. I'm really sad about it, but we are moving to Washington state before the end of the year ???. My family lives there, and I went to part of high school there and we lived there for a couple years when our oldest was a baby. So it's not ALL bad. But...I'm still sad to leave my neighbors ????

Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?