Been in hospital with blood clot on lungs and flu (this pregnancy is trying to kill me 🙈) baby is…

Been in hospital with blood clot on lungs and flu (this pregnancy is trying to kill me 🙈) baby is fine but they have said I need to express my first few days of milk when shes born and throw it away due to radiation in my breast tissue because of all the chest scans I've had. I can breast feed after that but don't really want to risk it! Sigh, it's never easy is it 😅😅