Ughhhh even though I KNEW I would have a third boy, I’m still kind of sad. It’s not fully that it’s…

Ughhhh even though I KNEW I would have a third boy, I’m still kind of sad. It’s not fully that it’s a boy, it’s that I saw the placenta in his face, just like Oliver’s was and it was like a flashback of memories and for a split second I was wondering if this pregnancy would end the same way it did with Oliver... so I was really scared and overall bummed. I assumed this would be my last kiddo so I don’t think I can even say “well, we can try again for a girl.” I just hope this pregnancy is better than the last.