Long rant: So I’ve been suffering with extreme crippling anxiety, and I have been refusing to take any pharmaceutical…

Long rant:

So I’ve been suffering with extreme crippling anxiety, and I have been refusing to take any pharmaceutical SSRI even tho I’ve been prescribed everything in the books after I tell the therapist or doctors how I feel.

I’ve basically put my body under so much stress my hair has been falling out, and I got my period twice this month.

I have been doing everything natural to try to beat this feeling. I’ve been feeling like mind fog, fatigue and stuck in the “fight or flight” response for months. I have been researching also for months the use of medicinal marijuana for stress and anxiety. I’ve been putting it off for months, because i thought it was something ethically wrong to do as a mother of 2 kids, and “how could I ever do drugs”

Well, this week I’ve been feeling the lowest I’ve felt. And I knew I had to do something. I started journaling my emotions and state of mind since Monday. Today I also purchased my first ever marijuana pen with the strain ACDC. This strain is a high cbd and low thc strain.

Because I have severe chronic anxiety smoking weed in the past made me have panic attacks, but after some research I found this strain that surprisingly doesn’t give you the high feeling I dreaded. I will only be taking 1 hit in the morning and 1 hit in the night time.

Immediately after taking it I felt all the tension in my neck and head just release. My shoulders weren’t up to my ears, and I realized that I had been clenching my teeth so hard my mouth actually hurt for god knows how long.

I was still alert and awake, and I just felt good. I didn’t feel high or lazy or sleepy. I had no awful comedown.

I’m only expressing this because if you need help, and SSRI aren’t for you just know you have options.

I am not smoking in front of my kids nor do I bring my pen inside my house, and like I said I am only taking 2 hits a day. I am moderating everything and strictly using it for my anxiety.

I just wanted to let anyone who has been researching to try this know that it works.

All the SSRI that I had been prescribed has awful side effects that seriously terrified me. I would’ve probably ended up in the hospital with a severe panic attack if I took a pill.

Anyway, thanks for reading. Lol