Today been a really bad day and yet good at the same time. The baby's heart rate was 168 today I am 13 weeks today. I all so found out i messed my back up really bad. If the PT and pain management does not work I could be in a wheelchair by September. That is how bad it is. I am scared, upset worried all the the same time. On top of all that I had to leave my job or they where going to let me go. I choose to leave because they said if I did later on down the road I get better and the baby is born I can go back.