Trigger. Lost baby

Went in for my 20 week check up and found out our son had passed away. Nothing was wrong, my pregnancy has been going great. I'm so numb right now. I'll he delivering him later this week. I don't want to do this. I don't want to do this. Not before Christmas. How am I'm going to tell my kids?? My dear sweet baby boy. Why did this happen?

I just hate the way I been feeling and the thoughts that have been running through my head 😭😭😭😭😭

So Dr has sent me in to do labs because I mentioned to him how itchy I’ve been these last couple of days. Any other moms gone through this before? He mentioned if something came up in my blood we’d have to do my section sooner than what it is scheduled for.

So as we do... I been reading birth stories with 3pregnancy... is it that bad the way people say it is??? 🤦🏽‍♀️why would my 3rd labour be more painful

Has anyone ever been called boring from their partner or they've stated their lives boring and we're together 24/7? He works constantly he's an amazing dad but would rather be with friends and smoke and do whatever even though that's not the person I fell in love with how do you not be so boring with kids my kids are my world whether he finds that boring or not sorry for the long post😔