I hate this and yet love this. My baby girl is sleeping in a different room for the second night…

I hate this and yet love this. My baby girl is sleeping in a different room for the second night now. She has slept in the same bed with us since birth and has only been away from us on special occasions. Last night I stayed up all night watching the monitor praying that she would be ok and sleep well, yet also hoping I could go and pull her in my arms and sleep like always. Tonight I just want to cry!! Today has been horrible as is and now my baby is sleeping without me. She doesn't breastfeed as much anymore either and it kills me!! 😭💔😭 She is growing up so much!