So had my second ultrasound thursday, its a boy. I just dont feel excited tho. Not because of the…

So had my second ultrasound thursday, its a boy. I just dont feel excited tho. Not because of the gender, just because i feel overwhelmed with the things we need to get and whether or not i can depend on my boyfriend to manage his money better. Honestly im feeling depressed and sometimes feel like i will be forced to give up my child for adoption because i wont be able to take care of him without my boyfriends help. Just makes me sad. I want to feel happy and excited but instead i dont feel like im going to get to keep my own child.