So I came down with strep throat and I was at my parents house from Friday to Tuesday. My bf/bd took care of the baby and did pretty well I guess. I asked to video chat with them once a day to see the baby. The reason i stayed with my parents is Raiden was diagnosed with pneumonia again and we didn't want he getting the flu which is what we thought i had because i had the body aches and chill and a 102.9 fever. Well I didn't get the video chat but the first day and I felt like shit the entire time because my bfs mother said that she hadn't heard raiden crying at all and it was like there wasnt a baby in the house. And the my bf had told me that he hadnt cried at all and I felt like they didn't need me or that I was a bad mom because I struggle on a daily basis because we have a lot going on. We have 4 dogs 2 outside 1 in our room and our female is in a cage in the livingroom because she gave birth a few weeks ago. So not only do I have a 5month old to take care of but I have to let 4 dogs out separately because they dont all get along on top of cleaning and changing out the puppies pad and food and letting them nurse occasionally because we are trying to ween them off so we can sell them. Not to mention laundry is usually built up and overflow because my bf works with fiberglass on a daily basis and there's so many people living in the home I can never get to the washer in time unless I wake up at the crack of dawn. Then i have a mother in law who b****s if I dont clean her house every day but I'm not the only one in the or the only one who uses dishes but I get she needs help. And when I do clean my bf says it's a miracle that I'm doing anything because all I do is sleep all day. But he was apparently able to do it all perfectly fine. Am I wrong for wanting him to fail at it?