I have an appointment with a lactation specialist Monday. We spent some time on the phone yesterday…

I have an appointment with a lactation specialist Monday. We spent some time on the phone yesterday going over everything that has happened the past week. She thinks the flanges are still the wrong size so I'll be bringing my pump to the apt. She suggested using these pads for the pain, which feel AMAZING. We are going to go over techniques and things to help me. I am still making a small amount of milk and pumping is still uncomfortable, but there is hope. I have been able to finally get her to latch again, she doesn't get a lot so I just do it after her bottle. She seems so happy and I realized that I really missed nursing her. She falls asleep so snuggly on there too. This afternoon my right nipple has a tear and is bleeding, just when I was starting to feel positive, so right now I can only use the left. I really can't believe how hard breastfeeding is. Monday can't come soon enough.