So the doctors decided that since Nia has been intensely trying to suck on any and everything that maybe the next time I go to visit we maybe able to put her to breast after I pump. Normally they start doing this about 34 wks . But in the meantime the nurse may try giving her a bottle with a little bit of milk just to see what she does. I noticed the last couple of times that I've done skin to skin with her that she was rooting and trying to suck on me. I should be happy because she's making such great progress but I can't be because my anxiety is such a negative bitch that just keeps sucking the joy out of any good news I get.