I’m forever grateful for my 2 boys and for my son I’m currently pregnant with! My oldest son is my rainbow baby. I never thought in a million year with having 4 back to back miscarriage I’d ever be able to have a full term baby that I can take home and love. But here I am with 2 and another one on the way! Iv had tons of tests and blood work done and also got an hsg done all for everything to come back completely normal. For me personally that was hard to hear and have all that testing done for them not to have a reason on why I kept having them. Back then I begged god to give me a reason on why he won’t let me have a baby. And told told him I would be a good mama just give me a chance. A few months after I asked god he let me get pregnant with my oldest son and he continues to keep blessing with me with babies. After all the heartbreak and crying I went through was worth to have the babies I have now! 🥰but I do struggle some days more then other, of the possibilities and what ifs on my first 4 babies 👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼👼🏼