I just want to be great .... lord I wanna be successful. I'm trying so hard ... hard having two kids ... any advice

I promise you it gets easier as baby gets older. Find a routine that works for you and stick to it like glue. Sync up afternoon nap so you get to rest too, or have some me time. Babywear when you can. Find a place that delivers groceries or that you can pick up curbside, it’s been my lifesaver 100 times over. Find things that both can do that will enrich them but also give you some social time- library, indoor play area, kids museum. Most importantly be gentle with yourself. 2 under 2 is HAAAAARD. HANG IN THERE!!