having very vivid flashbacks of the taste of liquor in the back of my throat. the burning/warm sensation when it hit my stomach. down to the fuzzy thoughts. I don't drink. I've had a little on my last birthday and that's about it since 2016. I tell myself I can't drink because I'm an alcoholic. I mean, I know when to stop, but I don't think I will because my emotional state is shit. even with the meds. I hate feeling so fucked up inside and everyone telling me it's bs & not real, etc. I'm suffering and I can't express that to anyone without it being a problem. i just want to be someone worth having a friendship/relationship with.. I'm sorry
Yesterday I went out with my boyfriend went to watch a movie, me and him don't live together yet. but point is yesterday when he was dropping me off his like sleep over at my house witch the mom and dad lives. I said no,
his response was why is everyone deciding or making choices for you and their going to do the same with the baby, when I know that's not true. what he thinks is that my mom tells me not to sleep over. So he left all mad. and I felt in my heart that he went on and cheated on me...
Having some pretty intense constant lower back pain and maybe super light contractions. But can't tell because the back pain is way over powering contractions so I'm walking around my room to see if they get worse.
Short Luteal Phase?
I've just started temping because I believe that the reason I haven't had a BFP yet, after 20 months, is because I believe I may have a Luteal Phase Defect.
Am I wrong for telling my Bd that because we not Married my baby don't have to have his last name? He really got mad and told me I was project n ignorant. Crazy part is I was thinking about giving my baby his middle and last name
no one knows I'm pregnant I turned 21 back in April when I was pregnant with my second. well I'm pregnant again but again no one knows my closest friend's birthday is on the 9th :( she's turning 21 and she wants to go out for drinks BUT I can't because I'm pregnant idk how to tell her I can't (because I really Dont want anyone to know) I know she'll be hurt but this is something I don't want people knowing :( please help